Pessimism and Optimism 5
After seeing clearly that “luck is the foundation of everything”, many people not only did not feel relieved, but became more nervous - so how can I be sure that I will continue to be lucky in the future?
This is a very good question. Indeed, if luck is so crucial, doesn’t it make the future even more unpredictable for me?
At this point, there are a few things you need to resolve:
First, truly let go of your arrogance.
What is truly letting go of arrogance? It means starting to recognize how poorly you have done in the past, clarify, understand and start to accept this fact.
Go to those critics you fear and avoid to learn from them, expose yourself and ask others to point out your mistakes. Go to those who warned you of past failures and predicted your failures to learn from them, read history books, and re-learn.
Clearly, none of the above is easy to take. I also do not recommend “self-improving” blindly beyond your tolerance.
But whatever you can withstand, you should bravely try.
Until you have a firm understanding of how wrong you were in the past.
Because the deeper you recognize how wrong you were before, the more you understand how lucky you actually were.
The deeper you reflect, and the more you see how absurd and arrogant you were, how stubborn and distorted, the more clearly you will see one obvious fact -
in fairness, you should have fallen into a much deeper plight much earlier than now.
You have been, really been, very lucky.
This kind of reflection in itself rebuilds confidence. Do not worry about how you will “not be able to hold your head high in front of others” after “losing pride”, or “how those people will laugh at you”.
This is not “self-esteem”, it is vanity. Vanity is the fuel and flame of your arrogance. If you do not let it go, your arrogance is not gone, and it will be hard for you to get out of your predicament.
Repentance is not a loss, but a gain. The deeper the repentance, the more you know luck, and the more confidence you will have for a rebirth of peace in the future -
"Previously I was blind, and relied purely on luck to reach where I am today.
Now that I can see, if my luck has not diminished, I will surely have a better future than before.
"This in itself is a healing process.
However, I repeat - this path of redemption is reserved for those who pluck up the courage to sincerely repent. Only this path can be taken, and insincere posturing and “admissions of fault” are meaningless.
Repentance cannot be an act put on for the sake of this reward. To know one’s mistakes still requires following a neutral, rational, fair attitude to judge right and wrong. Only by truly knowing something is wrong, not intentionally framing oneself, can repentance bring redemption.