Let it go?

I feel that my past self was very unworthy, disgusting, and foolishly frivolous. I wasted a lot of time, and I feel inferior and self-loathing. How can I let go of this?

Why do you want to let go? What do you want to do after you let go? Do you want to do it again?

Letting go usually leads to forgetting. To be honest, when people say “pursue letting go,” they are just trying to forget.

What kind of things should you pursue letting go of?

For example, if someone has offended you, you should pursue letting go.

For example, if you feel that you owe someone a favor, you should pursue letting go.

But if you have done stupid or wrong things yourself, it is wrong for you to pursue letting go. If it is something that has hurt someone, it is even immoral to pursue letting go. If you owe someone a million dollars and you are “letting go,” aren’t you asking for a beating?

In fact, what you want is to stop the feeling of torture, not “letting go.”

The best way to stop the feeling of torture when facing your own mistakes and wrongdoing is to think “I am different now” and “I am making amends.” This does not rely on “letting go,” but on being mindful, on the real feeling of relief that comes from the trend of decreasing, not the numbness that comes from anesthesia or nerve block surgery.

If the pain level was 100 yesterday, today, by being mindful and strictly avoiding repeating the same mistakes or making amends, the pain level can be reduced to 99. Don’t think that it only decreased by 1 point. If it is 98 tomorrow and 97 next week, this decreasing trend can give you great comfort.

But if you do nothing, the pain level will remain at 100 yesterday, today, and tomorrow. You will only consider increasing the dosage of anesthesia. It is true that one day you can knock yourself out and the pain will be reduced to 0, and you can “let go.” However, the “let go” of you not only missed a major opportunity for growth, but also caused other people to be deeply disappointed.

This is not the kind of disappointment of frowning, but the disappointment of abandoning you and excluding you from their lives. After such a big lesson, you still don’t repent. Who wants to be your next object of “letting go”?

To stop the torture, correct your mistakes, make amends for your mistakes, and atone for your sins.

Don’t let go. Be mindful.